My Heart

I'm walking, walking alone
This empty street, everyone's gone
How should I hold on?
When my heart is breaking
And my heart is bleeding

You came to me
With a light
You invaded me
I couldn't fight
Oh please I'm hurting
Don't you know my soul is dying?

Now I'm walking, walking away
From the world, I couldn't stay
I wish I could have your touch
That I've been wanting so much

This feeling is unintended
It's uninvited
But I know I'm not wanted
So I'm leaving with all these feelings
I have to bury, oh I'm crying

Oh dear wish I could show
I wish I could let you know
I've been praying but I can't let go
I'm stuck in between, I feel so low

This empty street is my heart....

Moga

Moga kau tenang
Moga kau riang
Ditiap jalan
Ditiap ruang

Moga hatimu tidak keliru
Dalam memburu impianmu
Moga kau tahu yang mana satu
Untuk kau sentuh dan kau tuju

Jalan kau pilih moga yang terbaik
Jalan yang bakal memberimu bahagia
Jalan yang tidakkan mengundang derita

Aku iringi dengan restu dan doa
Semoga kita akan bertemu semula
Moga.. bertemu semula

Moga harimu selalu terang
Moga kau temu kedamaian

Jangan kau lupa dimana kau bermula
Jangan berdusta pada yang setia
Moga.. tiada yang terluka

Biarpun dikau jauh
Manapun kau berlabuh
Kuharap hatimu kan tabah
Dan jangan sesekali kau berubah
Moga kau tetap seperti yang dulu

Jalan yang tidakkan mengundang derita
Jangan kau lupa dimana kau bermula
Jangan berdusta kepada yang setia
Moga.. tiada yang terluka

Moga kau tenang
Moga kau riang

Moga, Farhan Azizan

Review AF6 6th Concert : Bye Bye Mama

I’m disappointed. Wait, why should I be? It’s AF. I can’t be expecting each and every single one of the students to deliver a stellar performance every week. I didn’t really watch the concert that night because I was busy switching channels. But I did watch the repeat yesterday.

So who was the best? Let’s start the review. Pardon my language. I’m having a mood swing. Here we go.

8. Toi – Tak Bisakah

No surprise here. I changed the channel after watching him perform halfway. I didn’t get what he was singing. So I watched it again yesterday afternoon. Gosh. It was a bad karaoke for me. I’m sorry Toi, but you can’t sing. Please do what you do best, play the angklung. Just don’t sing anymore. Singing is not your thing and it will never be. Why is he still there? GET THE FREAKING OUT!

7. Stanly – Katakanlah

I still remember someone sang this song during AF3. I just can’t remember his name. But he did way much better than Stanly. Stanly’s version was all over the place. His runs ruined his performance. He was shooting everywhere. Pitchy. He needs to leave the academy as soon as possible. I’m getting nothing out of him. How sad because technically, he is supposed to be the best. OUT!

6. Nubhan – Generasiku

Better this week. But still not enough for me. I’m sorry. Nubhan, you have such a lovely tone, but you’re not improving enough. You need to focused and perhaps you need to be like Dora the Explorer. Why Dora? Because you need to explore. Explore your freaking unique tone! IN

5. Rina – Ular

I didn’t feel a thing when she was announced as the one who's gonnna leave the academy. I just felt that Toi was supposed to be out. Dang! She was just okay. She was mumbling almost half of the song. Her performance wasn’t interesting. It was like a bad impersonation of Anita Sarawak. Nothing spectacular about her performance. She seemed a bit over confident though. Good luck mama. IN

4. Alif – Ketahuan

I like this song. I like his performance. It was enough for me to put him in this spot. Technically, he’s improving. But he’s inconsistent. He still has a loooonnnggg way to go. IN

3. Nadia – Rama Rama

Adlin was right. Her performance was kind of over the top. It was like a machine gun shooting without stopping. But she was still good though there were some flat notes. Still she was one the best. But I still get the vibe that she’s trying TOO hard. Chill girl. IN

2. Riz – Seribu Tahun

I love this song to death! Riz tried to make the song his own. Good. He was good although there were some off parts especially at the end. But still, his voice mesmerized me. He is such a good singer with great potential. Lovely tone. Way to go boy! IN

1. Stacy – Don’t Speak

Give this girl anything, she can do it. Nothing much I can say about her performance. It was great. I enjoyed it. I understand her story. She’s a star! SO IN!

Next week, the concert will be held in at Istana Budaya. Wow! A lil’ bit too big for them don’t you think? Especially for Toi. I hope Stanly will ‘goreng’. Hope my three favs will excel. Good luck.

Till next time. Out!

*Pictures courtesy of Mr Manager*

I'm Bored To Death

The title says it all, FYI

p/s: why the capitals?

Homeless

Waiting here
For you to call me
For you to tell me
That everything's a big mistake

Waiting here
In this rainfall
Feeling so small
This dream was not suppose to break

I'm so sorry now
For the pain I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I'm homeless

In this cold
I'm walking aimless
Feeling helpless
Without a shelter from the storm

In my heart
I miss you so much
Missing your touch
And the bed that used to be so warm

I'm so sorry now
For the pain I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please..

Homeless, Leona Lewis

Footprints In The Sand

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow
And despair

And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I know you'll be there
Cause I can feel you
When you say

Footprints In The Sand, Leona Lewis

You Gave Me Something

I was down. I needed someone to talk to. So I decided to call him. To talk to him. He gave me few advices on how to face my situation. Whatever he said were the things that I’m supposed to do. But I just do not have that much of courage to do it. I listened to him talking, until he said something that really struck me.

“Aku rasa kau ada masalah dengan diri kau. Mungkin itu antara faktor kenapa kau rasa macam ni”

More or less the same. He did tell me that he was just telling me how he feels, not that he is sure that I have problems with myself. It made me think for a while. How true it is. It was like a tight slap on my face telling me to wake up. Wakey wakey!

I’m gonna fight these demons in me. I’ll try my best to do whatever I can. I’m a strong person and nothing will stop me from becoming one. To you my friend and you know who you are, if you ever read this, I wanna say thank you. You are truly something.

Kupu Kupu III

Kupu kupu
Warnamu, tarianmu, dirimu
Ku renung dari kejauhan

Mimpiku hanyalah mimpi
Pasti hilang tibanya hari
Biarpun ku bernafas di udaramu
Namun tetap ku lelah mengenangmu

Kupu kupu
Teruskanlah terbanganmu
Takkan ku ganggu keriangan itu
Ku janji ini padamu

Bangun aku dari leka ini
Ku tenung dirimu tuk sekian kali
Biar kulepas segala rasa
Biar kupendam segala cita

Berat hatiku melepas rasa ini
Namun tak bisa ku teruskan lagi

Kupu kupu
Terbanglah kau di kedamaian
Bebaslah kau di awanan
Akan ku datang lagi tuk melihatmu
Kerna adamu menghibur laraku

Kiranya kau sepi
Kiranya kau sunyi
Kau tahu di mana untuk kau cari
Di taman ini akan ku nanti

Kupu kupu
Di sini aku akhirkan
Sebuah impian yang ku angankan
Tidak ku akan melupakanmu
Tidak ku akan meninggalmu
Indah dirimu kan kekal di jiwaku

Kupu kupu ku..

Chasing Pavements

I've made up my mind
don't need to think it over
if I'm wrong i am right
don't need to look no further
this ain't lust i know this is love

But if i tell the world
I'll never say enough
cos it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you

Should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there
Should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

Chasing Pavements, Adele

Kupu Kupu II

Ku lihat kupu kupu itu
Tarian indah penuh riang
Di taman larangan
Yang indah pandangan

Ku masih lagi menyimpan impian
Yang pernah ku angankan
Namun tak mungkin
Rasa itu dinyatakan

Kupu kupu ku lihat terbang

Ku ingin menggapaimu
Di kala kau memerlukan
Ku ingin menyentuhmu
Di kala kau kesepian
Namun tak bisa tanganku mencapai
Ku tak bisa..

Ku duduk melihatmu menari
Kau riang hatiku senang
Kau resah hatiku gundah
Namun ku hanya mampu menahan
Segala rasa tersimpan

Haruskah ku lepas rasa ini pergi?
Kerna nyata kau tak ku miliki
Haruskan ku terus melihatmu?
Dan menyimpan dendam dan rindu

Kupu kupu
Jasadku tak mampu meluahkan
Batinku tak bisa meneruskan
Moga kau terus riang
Merasa bahagia di taman itu
Kiranya kau terluka
Terbanglah padaku
Kan ubati luka itu
Dengan hatiku..

Menanti Pasti

Kegelapan malam ini menyesakkan jiwa,
Tanpa bintang untuk aku mimpikan mimpimu,
Aku…merindu indah bulan,
Menyuluh kelam malam,
Mengharap bintang akan bersinar

Menanti Pasti, Siti Nurhaliza

REVIEW AF6 5TH CONCERT : BU HETTY, BU KARTINI

I managed to watch the concert live. As in, I was there, in the hall, watching them perform. Thanks to Mr Manager who was so kind giving me the opportunity to watch the concert and became part of the live audience. I’ve had quite a rough week, so watching the concert did cheer me up a little bit.

My review is gonna be slightly different this time. I’m gonna divide the performances into two. The good and the bad. There will be the best of the best and the worst of the worst. It’s going to be reviewed randomly, not according to my ranking from 9-1. Pardon my language. Here we go.

The Good

Riz – Time Is Running Out
He was awesome. I love his performance. It was definitely one of his best. He was clearly in control. His voice projection was good to me. He is so versatile and consistent. I want to see him in the final concert. I just want him to tone down his attitude and slim down his body. If he managed to successfully achieve those two, I believe he will be the next male singing sensation, like Anuar Zain. SO IN!

Stacy – Makhluk Tuhan Paling Seksi
She is a star and nobody can deny that. I really really enjoyed her performance. It was spectacular! Words can’t describe how good she was. Her movements were great, her vocal was outstanding. I love her tone. That husky tone makes me go crazy! I want her to win and please, let her win. She deserves it. SO IN!

Nadia – Kalis Rindu
This girl knows how to capture the audience. Her performance to me was really good. She enjoyed singing the song, she was telling a story and the story was good. I couldn’t take my eyes off her. She’s cute! SO IN!

Rina – Syurga & Neraka
She’s a performer. Well, at least she tried to be one. Her vocal wasn’t stunning. Her dress was a bit too much. But her performance as a whole was good. I like it when she tried to communicate with the audience. Good job mama! IN

All of them deserve a place in the final concert. They have been showing consistency, good improvements and I hope the audience will vote for them instead of others. Not to say the rest of the contestants are not good, but these four are just better than them.

Now let’s move on to the bad ones. Though there are few good performances in the bad category, but I still think their performances were a bit bland, mediocre and weak as a whole.

The Bad

Stanly – Umi
It is such a nice song. Stanly was okay. Hearing him singing live is different than watching it at home. He has one powerful and loud voice. But it’s true. He needs to control his microphone while singing. His projection was really good but because of the weakness in controlling the mic, his sounded like screaming, not singing. I thought his emotions were forced. He should not THINK too much about his movements and gestures. Let it come naturally and make sure the emotion comes from the heart. He deserves another week. OUT!

Saida – Bila Bunga Bunga Berguguran
Call me jiwang or whatever, I have this song in my Ipod and I love it so very much. The song is very soothing but sad. I dunno why, but I think that I’m starting to like Saida although I don’t think she is a good singer. She can sing but she’s definitely not a singer material. But she can grab attention. People would want to look at her, and they will expect more from her. Like me. She was beautiful last night. My friend told me that he likes her. She’s cute! Yes, she is cute. There something about Saida. Too bad she’s gone. Her performance was just okay. I was so mad at her because she tends to let go of her emotion sooner that she’s supposed to. She wasn’t in control of her own emotions. Argh! OUT!

Nubhan – Kembali Senyum
Nubhan disappoints me big time! I was furious because he didn’t perform well. Luckily Ibu Hetty likes him. Probably because of his tone. But he is not working it. I thought he sounded off a little a bit. He didn’t make the song his own. I like the Japanese/Korean version of the song better than the Malay. Nubhan needs to step up. Find his x-factor. Find his identity. OUT!

Alif – Hai
He was okay. Just okay. Multitasking on stage is not easy. Multitasking one stage in from of hundreds of people IS definitely hard. But I think Alif pulled it off. Why is his percentage so high?? OUT!

Toi – Beautiful Girls
I was laughing my ass off. I dunno. It was just wrong wrong wrong. Horrendous with a capital H. The lowest level of karaoke. If Simon said to Brooke, ‘it’s like ordering a hamburger without the meat’. But watching him perform, was like ordering a Big Mac at KFC where you will get a tight slap on your face for being stupid. He needs to go. He should have gone. He’s TOO mediocre. GET THE FREAKING OUT!

Now, here’s my ACTUAL ranking.

1. Stacy
2. Riz
3. Nadia
4. Rina

(HUGE GAP)

5. Stanly
6. Alif
7. Saida
8. Nubhan

(HUGE GAP x 10)

9. Toi

That’s all folks. Till next time. Out!

Unwell

Time is running out. No, I’m not dying.

Call me paranoid or anything, but I always have the tendency to imagine what the future would be. Usually it won’t be a nice picture for me. I always imagine it to be sad, empty and full of misery. Why? Because that is what I’m afraid of.

I know it a very negative thing to do and I should avoid it and just of think something positive or just don’t think of it at all. But hey, it’s me. It’s not that I don’t wanna be positive but sometimes, well most of the times before this, when I think of something positive, it usually turn the other way round. And obviously it will crush my heart. Break it into million little pieces and I would face a tough time mending it, alone.

I don’t know why I am like this. I’m trying my best to hide my feelings, to control everything so that I will be just okay when everything is gone. I know I’m not alone in this world. I have family, I have friends and etc. But deep down inside, I don’t feel the joy of sharing days, happiness and care with others. It’s merely on the surface, nothing deep and meaningful.

I need meanings in my life. Everything that I do, I want it to be meaningful, to me, and to others. Call me deep or whatever, but that’s just me. To me life is a celebration. We would want to celebrate the days with the person we care the most. I guess to those who knows how it feels to have someone they love, would understand what I mean by this.

I have been blessed with a great family, a good father, a wonderful mother and an amazing little sister. My family isn’t big. It’s very small. We do have relatives but we are not close to each other. Maybe it’s due to the fact that we seldom meet each other. We only gather when there are any special occasions which I’ve always skipped. It’s not because I don’t like to socialize with them, but I just don’t feel any connection. They would always treat my family differently so that’s why I don’t really enjoy being with them.

Well, enough about my family.

I’m slightly down today. Like I said, I’m trying my best to control myself. To not think, or do something which I’m not supposed to do. It’s very hard. I’m keeping it normal. As normal as it can be. But part me of me want it to be different, but I’m running out of time. What should I do?

If ever the day comes, when I just shut myself off from anyone and EVERYONE, that means I’ve reached my peak.

I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell

“All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I’m headed for a breakdown
And I dont know why

But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

Im talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they’ve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow Ive lost my mind

I’ve been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they’ll come to get me
Yeah, they’re taking me away”

Wonderful Life

Suns in your eyes, heat is in your hair, they seem to hate you, because you're
there, And I need a friend, oh I need a friend, to make me happy, and I stand
here on my own

taken from the song 'Wonderful Life' by Tina Cousins

Such a beautiful song, with a beautiful meaning.

Kupu Kupu

Ada seekor kupu kupu
Punyai sayap yang indah
Ku lihat kupu kupu itu terbang bebas
Mempersona pandangan yang tiada terbatas

Ku duduk melihat kupu kupu itu
Ku angan untuk dia datang padaku
Kupu kupu kulihat terbang
Ke sana sini begitu riang
Begitu cantik untuk dipandang

Ada seekor kupu kupu
Berwarna putih bersulam biru
Ku lihat kupu kupu itu
Begitu menarik rasa di kalbu

Ku ingin menyentuh kupu kupu itu
Tapi sayang tangan tak sampai
Ku ingin memiliki kupu kupu itu
Tapi sayang, ia terbang di taman larangan
Bagaimana rasa menyimpan impian
Yang sukar untuk ditunaikan?

Di sini ku duduk melihat kupu kupu
Berharap agar ia terbang padaku
Kupu kupu, jangan pergi jauh dariku

Biarpun tak mungkin kau tahu

Rasa yang tersemat di hatiku

Namun ku mahu engkau tahu
Ku ingin melihatmu selalu

Vulnerability

Vulnerable = capable of being hurt : susceptible to injury or disease

and I'm vulnerable.

Na Na Na

I woke up this morning feeling lazy. I set my alarm at 6.15 am this time. Usually it will be 6.30 but I found that 45 minutes of getting ready is not enough for me. The first thing I would do usually is take my bath. My cold morning bath. Then I’ll perform the Morning Prayer and surf the net for about 10-15 minutes. After that I’ll be putting on my attire and do my hair. Just a little bit as my hair is slightly easier to manage now.

That’s basically sum up my daily morning routine. Nothing interesting tho. I don’t take breakfast at home. I’ll usually buy it on my way to the office or sometimes I just don’t take any.

Last night, I slept quite late. I wanted to sleep earlier but somehow I couldn’t close my eyes. But it was better than the night before. Saturday night I mean. I dunno what was wrong with me but on that night, I only got to sleep at almost 4 in the morning. Earlier that night, I went out with a friend of mine for dinner at Ampang. It was a nice dinner. I came back home at around 11 something. We talked, well, I talked quite a lot. Knowing me, I can be quite talkative especially to those I think I can get along with very well. But I’m trying to tone myself down so that I won’t annoy the person that I’m talking to. You know, you never know what others might think of you right? No, I’m not trying to give good impressions. I’m just trying to keep a good vibe.

Making good impression is important but not to the extend of trying to make others to like you for the sake of liking you and being their friends. Frankly speaking, I have done that before and when I think about it now, I feel so stupid because of that Maybe it’s due to my age factor back then, I was younger and naïve-r. Haha. But now, like I said, I’m trying to keep it cool. I will never try to change myself just to fit into someone else’s life.

I’ve always told myself not to really care what others might think or are thinking about me and I’m doing just that but sometimes you need to think what others prolly think or are thinking about you so that you know what your flaws might be, what are you lacking of and what mistakes need to be corrected. Nobody’s perfect. So if you like me for who I am, then it will be my greatest pleasure to have you in my life but if you don’t and think that I might not be good enough for you , there’s nothing I could say other than, thank you for trying to know me. I’m just an ordinary person with a big heart (I think!). Nothing special about me but if you consider having a big heart is a special power, I’m honored. Haha.

Some people say, I sounded and acted more matured than normal people at my age. I don’t know whether it’s a good thing or not but I’ll just gonna take it as a compliment. I do have the ‘childish’ side of me. Everyone does right? I can be whiny, I can be impatient, I can be anything you could think of (well not the really bad ones la). I tend to get bored easily of things unless I really really like or in love with THAT thing. I admit, I like to over analyze things, over think certain stuffs but hey, call me paranoid or anything, I just want it to be almost perfect (coz I know nothing can be perfect). I might look complicated but trust me, I don’t think I am. Maybe I’m fussy in choosing food for myself, but I guess I’m a simple person. I can befriend anyone but just make sure you don’t get on my nerves la and make sure you are not a serial killer. I don't wanna die at a young age. I just turned 20 few months ago okay! :P.

Why am I crapping bout myself? I dunno. Maybe I’m just bored right now. So rather than talking to myself and scare other people (they might think I’m going crazy or something), it’s better for me to write it. This blog is my friend. He knows me better than anyone else. I just wish he could be alive because I know he will forever be here by my side.

I guess it’s better for me to stop or else this post will be longer than the Klang river. *wink*

Lelahan Jiwa

Aku mencari sesuatu yang belum ku tahu
Aku mengharap sesuatu yang mungkin bukan milikku
Di mana kan ku jumpa hati yang perlu
Menginginkan aku di setiap waktu?

Mimpi yang datang tak pernah ku kecap
Mimpi yang datang kerap ku hilang
Aku bermimpi sesuatu yang ku tak pasti
Aku bermimpi jiwa tak terisi

Ku cuba melangkah meniti kegelapan
Kerap ku terjatuh ku tangisi sakitnya
Ku bangun semula dengan kekuatan
Namun kesannya masih kekal ada

Ku temu jiwa jiwa yang baru
Ingin ku simpan di dalam kamarku
Ku lihat kebahagian jiwa jiwa itu
Cemburu menjelma merungsing hatiku

Lelah sungguh perasaan ini
Lelah sungguh memikirkan nasib diri
Akankah ada tangan yang menangkapku?
Saat ku jatuh dari anganku?

Letih sudah aku berjalan
Jauh lagi di hadapan pandangan
Langkahku kian merapuh
Hatiku kian tersentuh
Bilakah impianku kan berlabuh?

Ku tuliskan bait dari lagu
‘Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah, dalam tidurmu’
Ku titipkan bait dari lagu
‘Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau sentuh’
Indah, terlalu indah
Tetapi hanya mungkin terjadi di dalam angan

Kiranya ada yang bisa ku rindu
Ingin ku peluk dirinya selalu
Kiranya ada yang merinduiku
Pupuklah sayang di kalbu

Moga ku bisa melawan kesepian
Kiranya tiada untukku teman
Moga ku bisa menempuh rintangan
Mencari sinar di penghujung jalan

Cinta Dalam Hati

Mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
Mengagumi tanpa dicintai
Tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia
Dengan hidupmu, dalam hidupmu

Telah lama ku pendam perasaan itu
Menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
Tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah
Bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

Ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu
Meski ku tunggu hingga hujung waktuku
Dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
Dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
Tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
Dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja

REVIEW AF6 4th CONCERT: GRUMPY OGY

Okay, I managed to watch it tonight when I was having my dinner with a friend of mine. Frankly speaking I didn’t enjoy tonight’s concert. It was like back to square one. Almost everyone gave an average performance. Nothing spectacular (has it been any?). I’m having a tough time to rank the performance. It was THAT boring.

Can I criticize the judges? Okay, maybe not all of them, but only one. Ogy, why so grumpy tonight? And please lah, why so complicated? I know she’s trying to teach the students stuffs but certain times she went overboard by criticizing the unnecessary things. Text, subtext or whatsoever. I don’t care. It’s not a performing arts class, it was a concert! When a student gave a good performance, please give them credit. And please lah, keep it real. It’s not some drama or theatrical performances so don’t over analyze things. I admit she is a good judge, but sometimes she tends to show that she knows everything but I personally think she doesn’t.

For me, only 3 students managed to excel tonight. The rest was out of the chart. One was out of the world. If I were the principal, I would personally kick out maybe 5 students. Seriously. I don’t see anything good about them as a performe/singer. Let’s start the review. Pardon my language. Here we go.

10. Stanly – Kasih Tercipta
Kasih Tercipta my a**! It was more like Hantu Tercipta. What the hell was that? He wasn’t singing for god sake! He reminds me of a military sergeant giving orders to his cadets. You know, “left, right, left , right”. You get what I mean. It was the most horrible, scary, horrendous performance of the night. Nothing could precisely describe how bad it was. I was literally putting my finger in my ears to avoid listening to the horrible sound of his singing. GET THE FREAKING OUT!!

(HUGE GAP)

9. Toi – Laukku Cukup Masin
What was he singing? I don’t get it. Was he reading something? Bleagh! OUT!

8. Aliff – Menghapus Jejakmu
Boring. Boring. Boring. ZZZZZZZ…next! OUT!

7. Nubhan – Cinta Hampa
Performance wise, he was okay. Average. But he went out of tune. That’s why he’s here. At this spot. Boy, BUCK UP!! OUT!

6. Saida – Hati Kama
Again, she was just OKAY. But she doesn’t know how to make good use of the surprise that she got. She was like, blur. As if she didn’t know what to do. Sigh. Pity her. OUT!

5. Faisal – Joget Bunga Melati
Boring. But he gave something new. Props. IN

4. Rina – Terbang Helang
It was boring. I didn’t really watch her performance because it was boring. But I still think she was good as a singer. IN

3. Riz – Marabahaya
I don’t like the song. Sorry. I don’t like the choreography.Sorry. But I do like his performance. He gave his all. He showed to us that he is versatile. He’s annoying but at least, he performed. Unlike somebody.. (lalala). IN

1. Stacy – Cinta Khayalan & Nadia – Mengapa Dirindu
Both of them were good. Really good. They are in a different league than the rest. Either one of them should win this comp. Nadia was beautiful. Stacy was powerful. I don’t know which one should be number one tonight, so I decided to put both of them together at the same spot. Ramli, can we have only two finalist this year??? By the way Ogy, do you really want to see Stacy like crying on the stage just to show everyone that she feeeeeeel the song? Nonsense! SO IN!

That’s all. I’m having headache. I need panadol and a freaking good sleep. I hope any hantu won’t tercipta tonight. See ya!

Amour Venme A Buscar

I have never actually heard this song before. I looked for it. I got to know about this song from a friend of mine . I believe he loves this song, and I can understand why. It is such a beautiful love song. Knowing me, I'm a sucker for love song (ballads MOSTLY) so thank you to you mate for introducing this song to me. The melody is just so mesmerizing. I can actually feel the song without understanding the lyrics.After knowing the true meaning of the song, it almost made me cry.

To you my friend, if you ever gonna read this, don't be sad. I hope you will be okay.

Mi vida sin ti ya no es vida.
Tu amor es el aire que me hacía respirar…
Te extraño porque me haces daño,
es imposible aunque lo intente olvidar…

De quererte así me voy a enloquecer…
Moriría si me dejas de querer…

Amor venme a buscar.
Te necesito no lo ves,
no puedo más…
Todo es tristeza,
desde que no estas.
No seas cruel perdóname.
Nunca se resignará mi corazón.
A perder tu amor…

¡Te amo, cuánto te amo!
Tú me decías llena de felicidad…
Lo entiendo, no lo comprendo…
¿Cómo me puedes herir así y abandonar?

Te conozco, sé muy bien que al igual,
que yo. Tienes ganas que otra vez,
seamos dos…

Amor venme a buscar.
Te necesito no lo ves,
no puedo más.
Todo es tristeza,
desde que no estas.
No seas cruel perdóname.
Nunca se resignará mi corazón.
A perder tu amor…

Vuelveme a buscar.
Salvame del castigo,
de no tenerte un día mas…
Voy a enloquecer si me dejas de querer…

Amor…..
Te necesito no lo ves,
venme a buscar.
Todo es tristeza,
desde que no estas.
No seas cruel perdóname.
Nunca se resignará mi corazón.
A perder tu amor….

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ENGLISH TRANSLATION

TELL THAT TO MY HEART

My life without you is not life
your love is the air that I breathe
I miss you because you make me suffer
it is impossible though I try to forget...

I drive myself crazy loving you...
I would die if you stop loving me...

love, come and find me!
I need you, can't you see?
I can't take anymore
everything became sad
from the moment you went away
don't be cruel, forgive me.
my heart will never resign itself
to lose your love...

I love you, how much I love you!
You told me you were so happy...
I can see that but I don't understand...
how can you hurt me this way?
how can you abandon me?

I know you, we're just the same
your desire is to see us together
another time...

love, come and find me!
I need you, can't you see?
I can't take anymore
everything became sad
from the moment you went away
don't be cruel, forgive me.
my heart will never resign itself
to lose your love...

come and find me again!
rescue me from this punishment
that of having you no more
I drive myself crazy loving you...
I would die if you stop loving me...

my love...
I need you, can't you see?
I can't take anymore
everything became sad
from the moment you went away
don't be cruel, forgive me.
my heart will never resign itself
to lose your love...

to live without your love...

REVIEW AF6 3rd CONCERT : MEET THE WANNABE ROCKERS!

I’m back again for another round of review. Again, I didn’t get to watch the live show last night because I was out . So I just get to watch the repeat just now. So AF is trying to create something new heh? or has it been done before?It's a good thing by the way. Something like Idol format. I don't find anything wrong with that. But why rock? Why not something else? Never mind. I don't really care anyway.

Some did excel, some just failed miserably. I would rather go to Redbox and listen to the people there singing their heart out. I would rather pay THEM to sing for me than this bunch of crappy funfair singers. It has been three freaking weeks okay! Please lah! Wake up doinks!

As for the judges, come on lah. Get freaking real with your critiques. So let’s get into business. I'm so bored.
Pardon my language. Here we go.

12. Faisal – Sentuhan Kecundang
What the hell was that? OUT OF TUNE! I wanna kill this boy.But how? Please choose one from the options below:
A : Strangle him with a barb wire
B : Strangle him with a barb wire
C : Strangle him with a barb wire

Please choose for me? I’m ready. GET OUT!

11. Naim – Opera Hidup
I have doubt. I don’t think this boy can sing. He was like,making jokes on stage. I checked the info to make sure I was watching AFConcert, not Pentas Raja Lawak or something. It was terrible, messy and irritatinglyirritating. God! OUT!

10. Stanly – Patahnya Sayap Malam
He butchered the song. Tempo was everywhere. Vocal wasannoyingly forced. The ending was over the top. He’s so over. I don’t knowwhat’s wrong with him. I don’t care whether he has huge diaphragm or whateverbut the fact is that he is NOT that good. Okay? OUT!

9. Lufya – Tika & Saat Ini
First of all, Jasmi, please give back your granny dress.Don’t borrow, take or think about taking your granny dress or tablecloth orwhatsoever to be used by AF students ever again! Fugly dress!
Her singing? So so. Her emotions? Forced. Bad Bad! OUT!

8. Nubhan – Summer of 69
It was terrible. It was boring and forgettable. I still likehis tone tho.
Sad. Please do better next week boy! IN

7. Toi – C.I.N.T.A
He was literally spelling the words and he sounded like hewas spelling it, not singing it. He was okay. No energy. Boring. Boring. IN

6. Saida – Sepi Sekuntum Mawar Merah
I have this song in my Ipod and I really really love thissong. Her performance wasn’t that bad to me. It was okay. Average. I don't know why but I kinda likeit. IN

5. Alif – Kamelia
My dad always sings this song. He used to have his own bandso I always watch him practice this song. I thought Alif won’t deliver the song butto my surprise he did! I won’t say his vocal was stunning but the performanceas a whole was brilliant. He improved a lot. Good job. IN

4. Riz – Dari Sinar Mata
He was good although a bit monotonous.
I like his tone. His performance wasn’t thatoutstanding but he was in control. He is definitely one of the frontrunners.Good Job! IN

3. Stacy – Pelesit Kota
Vocal was stunning! I was amazed with her vocal performance.I agree with the judges. She needs to plan her movements on stage. It was quiteall over the places. It’s like she was playing police and thief (people wouldcall it police entry , you know, the main kejar kejar one). IN

2 . Nadia – Total Eclipse of the Heart
I just love this song to death.
Carly Smithson from American Idol Season 7sang this song last few weeks and it was amazingly good. Nadia didn’t do asgood as Carly but it was still amazing to me. Unfortunately, the song wastoo short. Stupid AF! I didn’t have much problems with her pronunciation because to me shehas this country twang which was okay. Love her! You go girl! SO IN!

1. Rina – Enter Sandman
OUTSTANDING, without a doubt. SO IN!

Till next time. See ya

Feeling All Musical

Morning everyone (if there's any)

I've been working on something since yesterday. A song. Yes, a song. I'm not musician by the way. But somehow I'm getting inspirations to write this song. It's still undergoing changes and everything. It's an R&B song. Heavilly influnced by Mariah Carey (maybe because Ihave been listening to her current songs lately).

Here''s the lyrics

From the first time that I saw your face, I know my heart would go on race
The smile of you makes me fly, The eyes of you make me high
I never thought I’d have this feeling, So deep inside it’s tingling
Please tell me what to do babe?

(And then now you’re here) I’m on fire
(And then now you’re here) My heart keeps beatin’ faster
(And then now you’re here)You’re givin’ me real fever
With you I wanna be forever

(Baby I love you)
I’m singing you this song
(Baby I need you)
I’ll be here all night long
(Baby I want you)
I want you too babe
Come on listen to me..

But, stop!
I thought, that our love will stay for long
But I guess I’m just so very wrong
You’re feelin’ for me isn’t strong
And you lied to me babe, all along
I never thought that you’ll be lying
I’m cryin’, I’m dying
How could this be hapennin’ to me now?

(And our love is gone) I’m all alone
(And our love is gone) I should have known
(And our love is gone)
And I’m leavin’ now, gonna take bow

(Baby I love you)
How could you do this to me?
(Baby I need you)
But I can’t be stayin’ here
(Baby I want you)
Please keep your sorry
Please keep your sorry

(Baby I love you)
That’s enough
(Baby I need you)
I trust you no more
(Baby I want you)
No baby, no baby
No, no, and I gotta go,
Goodbye.

Oh yeah, oh yeah.
Oh yeah, oh yeah,

p/s: Hopefully I can transform it into a REAL song! Heh!