EMPAT

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And
when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your
roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should
ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not
excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is
just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love
itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both
an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that
grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen
from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.

Captain Corelli's Mandolin.
"Love is the beauty of the soul."

--St. Augustine

Cinta dan kehidupan memang tak dapat dipisahkan. Dalam kehidupan ada cinta dan dalam cinta ada kehidupan. Cinta adalah penawar dan cinta juga mampu meracuni diri seseorang.

How do you define love or cinta?

How do you know you are in love?

Orang kata, pabila hati berdebar saat memikirkan seseorang, itu tanda dalam hati ada cinta.
Orang kata, pabila badan menjadi lemah saat memandang seseorang, itu tanda dalam hati ada cinta.

Betul ke?

Atau it is merely infatuation?

I’m not sure whether I have been in love or not. I’m 21. Mungkin terlalu awal untuk I berbicara soal cinta. Tapi yang pasti, I pernah menyayangi. Adakah I pernah mencintai? Sayang dan cinta sangat dekat antara satu dengan yang lain but there is one very fine line that separates both of them. It’s very hard to be explained, or maybe there are no words could explain the true meaning or sayang dan cinta.

When you meet someone yang you suka, you feel that you are slowly falling in ‘love’ with the person. You would do anything to make the person happy. You would change yourself just to give good impression to the person you are trying to attract. You would want to be with the person all the time. Anything about the person gives you the power to breathe, to live. But when something bad happens, the world turns dark. You would be disappointed. You would want to hurt yourself because you are being hurt by the person you thought you are in ‘love’ with. Everything seems wrong to you. The world turns upside down. Frustrations, angers, are your new ‘best friends’. At that moment of time, you will regret for falling in ‘love’ with that person. Anything about the person would no longer be good to you. You wish you could fall out of ‘love’ but falling out of ‘love’ is harder than it seems.

But are you sure, you are in ‘love’?

Why am I bringing this love matter up?

You might say, this is the most ‘boring’ blog you have ever read online. It’s okay. I won’t mind.

But this is where I could express my feelings.

Recent events have taught me a lot. I kerap kali mengingatkan diri I sendiri supaya tidak melakukan kesilapan yang sama berulang kali. So far, I managed to control myself. I hope I could. I feel a lot better now after burying few of my feelings. Burying? Yes. It sounds stupid and illogical but that is the truth.

I’m currently in a very weird situation. I’m not sure what I should do. Hopefully, semuanya akan berakhir. One twisted story.

I am in the midst of writing a story. The story I have been keeping for quite sometime. I hope I could finish it up by next week. It’s more like script. Tajuk ceita ini masih lagi belum ada, but draft title maybe ‘EMPAT’ but I’m not sure.

“Mengisahkan tentang 4 jiwa, Sofia, Julia, Zarif dan Zarith. Tentang pergolakan cinta, kehidupan, pengorbanan dan kasih sayang. 4 jiwa yang berasingan, disatukan dalam satu konflik, konflik yang mencipta sengsara dan kebencian. Komplikasi hati yang amat membingungkan. Bagaimana akhirnya? Only god knows.”