Apa Ertinya Cinta?

Apa ertinya kasih
Jika kau tidak peduli
Apa ertinya sayang
Jika aku rasa sendiri
Apa ertinya rindu
Jika hatimu tidak padaku
Apa ertinya cinta
Jika ia tak pernah ada

Apa ertinya kasih
Jika kau terus menyisih
Apa ertinya sayang
Jika aku tidak kau pandang
Apa ertinya rindu
Jika aku yang terus menunggu
Dan apa ertinya cinta
Jika kau tidak merasa

Apa ertinya kasih
Jika kau tidak mengerti
Apa ertinya sayang
Jika aku yang terus melayang
Apa ertinya rindu
Jika kau diam membisu
Dan apa ertinya cinta lagi padaku
Jika ia telah mati
Dalam jiwaku....

Apa Artinya Cinta?

Tiba-tiba engkau ada
Kemudian engkau hadir
Laksana kerdil ku memeluk
Lihat aku lebih dalam

Di matamu ku melihat
Ada cinta yg tersirat
Tirani hati merebak

Barangkali aku salah
Ku terdiam bukan bisu
Kutahu engkau besar malu
Tutupi rasa gelisah

Biar saja waktu nanti
Yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersamamu aku senang

Belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
Akulah yg pantas untuk kau cintai
Di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

Arti cinta ini sudah menelan waktuku
Siang malam hanya untuk pikirkan engkau
Sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

Emptiness

Well, nothing much to say about my life now. Today was like not a good day. I had this bengkak thing below my left eye. It was horrible. Erm..not that big- lah but it was so gatal and I had to like put some compact powder to cover it up. I dont know why suddenly this bengkak thing datang. So stupid. Then I kena this terrible headache where you can actually feel your head is like so berat. Sigh, I have no idea what is wrong with me now. Yesterday I decided to like taake a break form my myspace account. I just have to do it. I wanted to close it down but after pikir-pikir balik, it's such a stupid thing for me to do after all the hard work. So, I deleted half of my page content , changed my display pic [I made it using photoshop], deleted my background pic and few other stuffs. I'm so tired of myspace. It has been the source of my sadness all this while. I swear to god! But I cant blame on it entirely-lah kan. My fault too. Anyway, I'm not really in the mood to talk about myspace. I really need some space on my own to think about what I have done, and I have become....

Jaclyn Victor Live @ Planet Hollywood II

i went yesterday...first time tgk jac nyanyi live depan mata..b4 i perg..susah payah nak cari org to temakan me...rasa cam apa tah..pastu one of my frens kata dont expect too much from jaclyn...he said..i will get irriatated somehow by her performances and style..and said that dont worry about the tickets, takkan habis coz tak ramai sgt yg datang...but me still risau gak...he said that because his fren yg pergi for the first show on 6th march told him so, i didnt say a thing to him coz i know all i wanted was to see jac perform...so he ask me to evaluate her.....

because me risau pasal ticket akan habis, me pergi bb around 7...sampai kat PH around 7.15, n terus belibyr..takya beratur pun...huhu...then sambil tunggu my fren dtg..lepak2 around bb..makan kat lot 10, baca mag bla bla bla..then around 9.45 me da masuk Ph...boleh tahan gak crowd..my fren sampai around 10.15...so cari tempat nak berdiri, yes berdiri..hehehe..celebs yg dtg last nite, misha, sarah,daniel lee,farahdhiya,farah MI, saiful MI(macam perempuan sgt..ew), adam quickie, serena c, zainal alam, and aznil...tu je yg nampak..hehe...

the show started lambat sket, 10.45 camtu...jaclyn victor was beautiful, as usual of course, started off singing superstar by luther vandross, it was amazing..i love the song..basicly last nite, almost semua lagu yg dia nyanyi me tau nyanyi so ikut la nyanyi sekali ..ahaks...then she nyanyi di bawah pohon asmara...best..
tapi yg paling best, ada satu lagu yg me paling suka dlm her gemilang's album , TIADA LAGI INDAH...wow..wow..wow..thats all i can say..sedap gile...bertuah pergi rasanya sebab dpt dgr dia nyanyi lagu tu LIVE...hoho....then terus la..
other songs yg dia nynayi...tak ikut turutan,
chain of fools, crying( i think),kaulah segalanya,mencintaimu, tegar, if i aint got u, because of u, since u been gone (duet with farah MI), cinta (duet with Msha, sarah pun enterframe), superwoman, dia,we belong together, one thing, all by myself,tunggu sekejap, ordinary ppl, and few other songs yg me tak ingat sebab sgt terpukau ngan her permance..but she endede her show of course , ngan gemilang..:)

well...i enjoyed her performance..sgt sgt...after watching her live...i felt really proud bcoz we have such talent like her in our industry...powerful vocals..really..it was soooo amazing.i have no idea how can she sing like that..and ada few moments i couldnt breathe sebab tergamam tgk dia tarik tinggi2 ..hahaha..band da la power..kena plak ngan suara jac...takde apa nak ckp lg...for me, though her communication skills agak terhad...but still ok compared to few other singers, me da cukup terhibur da dgr suara dia..my advice, sesapa yg tak bape nak suka kat jac tu..tgkla dia perform live...tak pasti sama ada pendirian anda akan berubah, tapi pendirian saya telah berubah, saya bukan minat lagi da kat dia, tapi TERAMAT X 100 minat kat dia..wakakakakaka...tu je my comment..tak larat nak ckp lagi..ngantok actually..hahaha..tata

Jaclyn Victor Live @ Planet Hollywood

Okay..tomorrow last sekali dia perform kat situ. Me wanna go!!!! Nak sgt...but the problem now is kan...TAKDE ORANG NAK TEMAN ME!!!!..ARGHHH!!!! :(:(
so sad...sighh

Saya.Sayang.Awak

Awak,
kalau saya cakap,
sayasuka awak,
boleh tak?
kalau saya cakap
sayakisahpasalawak,
boleh tak?
kalau saya cakap
saya rindu awak
boleh tak?
saya takut awak marah
saya takut awak tak suka
tapi kan awak,
saya tak tau kenapa saya boleh ada perasaan tu semua
saya suka tengok awak
saya kalau boleh nak cakap ngan awak
hari-hari..

Awak,
saya tau kita kawan
tapi saya dah suka kat awak
nak buat camne kan?
kalau boleh saya tak nak awak,
tapi saya ta boleh buat ape ape

Awak,
awaktau tak
setiap hari saya mesti harap
awak call saya
saya nak call awak
sebab saya rindu kat awak
tapi saya takut saya akan ganggu awak
lagipun,
lagipun...erm
erm..
saya tak cukup credit lah awak..(hehe)

Awak,
saya tau awak happy skang,
awak dah ada orang yang awak sayang,
saya happy la bile tengok awak happy
walau saya tau perasaan saya camne
saya kena tolak tepi
takpe...saya memang akan sedih
tapi nak buat camne, kan?

Awak,
saya harap kita akan kawan sampai bila bila
saya harap kita takkan ada masalah
saya kenal awak pun tiba-tiba
saya tak sangka pun akan ada perasaan camni kat awak
saya happy bila dapat cakap ngan awak
tak tau nape..i just do..
so, saya harap antara kita tak akan ada perubahan
walaupun awak dah ada yang punya..

Awak,
saya nak awak tau,
saya bukan sahaja suka, kisah, dan rindu pada awak
tapi saya dah sayang awak
saya tau saya tak akan jumpa orang yang serupa macam awak
sebab awak satu-satunya kat dunia ni (duh)
tapi saya harap saya kana jumpa org yang baik cam awak
tapi saya tak tau la
awak sayang saya ke tak...
hrmmm...


Awak,
jaga diri baik-baik eh,
saya sayang awak..

Coretan Cinta

Andai ..
Harusku melangkah pergi..
Dengan..
Hati memendam rasa sangsi..
Bukan..
Kemahuan jiwaku..
Kerna..
Hancur hati ini..

Sayang..
Tika kau menyepi..
Tinggal diriku sendiri..
Gelas-gelas kaca ..
Jatuh berderaian..
Menemani diriku
Tiada akhirnya..

Tiada tempat ku mengadu rasa
Bagimu telah lama ku redha
Masih tersimpan harapanku
Membina mahligai syahdu

Segala keraguan ku lelahkan
Janji dusta jadi coretan cinta
Kini kuteruskan langkahku
Membina kehidupan baru

Sayang..
Tika kau menyepi..
Akhirnya..

A Room In My Heart

My heart was once just like a home
With many rooms and open doors
And I always let love in
It would change the rooms around and then
Leave them empty

'Til one by one I locked each door
And soon forgot what love was for
But I never gave up hopin'
So I left just one door open
In case you found me

So there's a room in my heart for you
If your trust has been stolen too
If you walk softly on this worn out wooden floor
And leave behind you the hurt you've had before
There's a room in my heart for you

We'll paint the walls from blue to white
And set the mood by candlelight
Together we'll keep out the cold
And I'll still be there when we're old
If you'll let me

So there's a room in my heart for you
If your trust has been stolen too
If you walk softly on this worn out wooden floor
And leave behind you the hurt you've had before
There's a room in my heart for you

All In Love Is Fair

All is fair in love, love's a crazy game
Two people vow to stay, in love as one they say

But all is changed with time, the future none can see
The road you leave behind, ahead lies mystery

But all is fair in love, I had to go away
A writer takes his pen to write the words again
That all in love is fair

All of fates a chance, its either good or bad
I tossed my coin to say in love with me youd stay

But all in war is so cold, you either win or lose
When all is put away, the losing side Ill play

But all is fair in love, I should have never left your side
A writer takes his pen to write the words again
That all in love is fair

A writer takes his pen to write the words again
That all in love is fair

Confessions Of A Lonely Heart (And It's Breaking)

These few days were like hell to me. I was so down and sometimes I just couldn't think straight. I can't believe I will be put in the same situation once again in less than 5 months. Something that I have never expected. I kept on telling myself before this, "expect the unexpected, because if you expect the expected, the unexpected will hurt you".But I'm doing the opposite thing. I don't know whether I'm hurting right now or what, but I do know that I'm having this kind of uncomfortable feelings which couldn't be described in just one word. All this while, I have been lying to myself and to others. I know I was having that kind feelings but I was too scared to let it all out because of certain unavoidable reasons. I felt guilty, that's why. I was supposed to stop this whole thing from the very beginning, but I was too lonely to do that. Part of me wanted to have it all by myself so others can never take it away from me, but part of me will never allow myself to do that because I care about others' feelings. I was trapped in my own world. I don't think I was fooled by anybody, though my close peeps said that I was. But, it is just not me to think bad about others, especially to those people whom trusted and I care greatly, and no, I'm not saying that I'm a good guy, hell I'm not.. If they did fool me, I will ask god to never let me know about it, because I know, it will break my heart into million of pieces. The minute when I read the thing, I was totally in shocked! I was stunned and my mind went blank. I didn't know what to think. At that very moment, I realised that all this while I did have that kind of feelings and it was too late for me to do anything. I was not 100% mad at that thing. I was mad at myelf for having that kind of thing inside. I kept on telling myself before this, make it ordinary, make it casual, make it simple...don't feel anything etc. But I was not doing the thing that I was supposed to be doing ...infact I put more thoughts on it. So after that, I decided to talk about it. But once again I wasn't being honest.. I lied about my feelings at that paticular moment because I didn't want to make anything worse. I left home very early because I needed to be alone and I was crying while listening to few songs.. Crying while driving. Can you imagine how dangerous it was? I cried not because of what I have been noticed and told, (partly yes) but I was crying because I'm afraid everything will change, and once again I will lose ppl that I have loved and cared for. I don't want to lose anybody. I wasn't okay. I lied. I had to.. I don't know what to do. Someone said I should not think about it that much. But should I?..or Can I? I just can't. I have been trying to focus on something else. I have been trying to make myself happy, but I failed. Next week I'm going to have a one week break. I hope I will recover, but I don't think I can....

I would like to say sorry for everything. If you're reading this blog, I want to apologize for what I have done and what you're going to know. Yes, you will know sooner or later. I'm terribly sorry. Really am....only god can explain my feelings right now. I'm going through hell.......

....Dealova....

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan-akan

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yg memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi

selalu ada, kau selalu ada
selalu ada, kau selalu ada

Misery

I must have kept it to myself,
the tears of sadness I cried.
I must have thought I had no worth
when looked at through your eyes.

It must have been misery that attracted me to you,
'cause everyday I lived in confusion of what
I had to prove.

Now I must except what was never going to be,
the love that should have grown
from the person that planted it's seed.

Love Is Like A Butterfly

Love is like a butterfly
That flaps its wings as it goes by.
It beats a rythm
Quietly sings
So much beauty
In those wings.
It doesn't stay
To let you see
Just how beautiful it can be
It hovers lightly
Teasing..'touch me, try'
Then as you reach
It says goodbye.
Love is like a butterfly
You think you've caught it
Then it flies!

Letting Go

It's been a bad day
I'm getting used to it now another sad day
I'd cry but I dunno how
I'm drowning in thoughts
of how things used to be
my chest was shut tight complete with purity
It's out in the open should've kept to myself
I'll learn from mistakes
take my heart off the shelf
my soul has now fled it's my body alone
and it's far too much hurt
for my heart to come home
I give it up now
there's no way to win
without you here my world still spins
It's been a bad day
I'll try to let it not show
another sad day
and I'm just letting go....

Fcuk!

This blog is like a diary to me..so I can write anything want here....

Im not in the mood to do anything right now..I have plenty of assignments need to be completed but with my condition right now, I dont think I could even touch the books. It's fucking annoying to me. What Im feeling right now is just so fucking irritating and I hate it. Why do I need to feel all this? Why am I being so kisah about other ppl's life? I have my own life to run. Oh maybe I know why...because the "other ppl" is my life. They just cant see it rite?..They just dont. Sometimes I feel like Im a piece of trash that can be found easily by the roadside. Well....Im absolutely sure that Im not a trash (DUH!) but they can make me feel like one! Imagine!...I really need some time off from all the problems that Im going through right now. And Im fucking needing someone that I can lean on...yes I do. Sounds weak huh? But Im being honest here. I need someone to love..someone who can love me. Im kind of desperate but Im not that desperate. Ya know..there are certain phases in your life where u wish there is someone for u to express your emotions, to hug, etc. I guess Im in that situation at the moment. I really do.

Arghh!!! Why? Why? Why do I need to go through this whole thing? I need an angel who can save me! Pleaseee....save me!...Im drowning and dying....I cant stand the pain, I cant stand the anger, I cant stand ..EVERYTHING!!! Gosh!!!!...

me out.!

I'll Be There

I'll be there
When no one is there for you
And you think no one cares
When the whole world walks out on you
And you think you're alone

I'll be there
When the one you care about the most
Could care less about you
When the one you gave your heart to
Throws it in your face

I'll be there
When the person you trusted
Betrays you
When the person you share all your memories with
Cant even remember your birthday

I'll be there
When all you need is a friend
To listen to you whine
When all you need is someone
To catch your tearsI'll be there
When your heart hurts so bad
You cant even breathe
When you just want to crawl up and dieI

'll be there
When you start to cry
After hearing that sad song
When the tears just won't
Stop falling downI'll be there
So you see I
'll be there until the end
This is a promise I can make
If you ever need meJust give me a call and..
I'll be there...

Love Is..

Love is like grass...If you fall on it, it may leave a stain and some temporary pain..but you'll get over the pain, it will eventually stop hurting. Now maybe the stain ruined your favorite pair of jeans, or maybe it was nothing special that was ruined, but either way the stain remains there. And with time it will begin to fade, but it will always be there, a permanent reminder that you, too, once fell....

If You Only Knew

If you only knew how much I cared for you...
You wouldnt need someone else
If you only knew how much I miss you...
You wouldnt see someone else
If you only knew how much I love you...
You wont leave me for someone else....

YES or NO?

I feel like writing something for my blog but I don't know what to say. My brain is not working that well lately. I have no mood to do any of my work or assignments. I feel like going out but I dont know where to go. Dammit...I have no idea what to say la.....Im just blank! Maybe because too many things going through my mind now. Should I be sad? or should I just pretend that nothing is going on. Everyting is just okay, normal! But how can I not think about it? I dont know what's the final decision would be. Hey, wait, why exactly I have to think about this? Im nobody, infact , I have no rights to think about this matter. But somehow the thing seems important to me. Why? Why? Is it because Ive developed my feelings or what? Maybe its true. I do care about it. Its going to affect me somehow. Expect the unexpected. Thats what Im goin to do. But what is the unexpected thing to expect? Which ONE? That would be the main question now. Nvm..I'll wait. Thats the only thing I could do now. Wait for the answer..with patience...

p/s: YES or NO? I'll be waiting for the answer...

Saya Sayang Dia Juga

Saya sayang seorang lagi
Kenapa saya sayang dia?
Ntah..tetiba je datang
Macam mana saya sayang dia?
Nanti saya cerita
Saya tak kenal dia dulu
But now I know
Saya selalu cakap dengan dia
Dia kawan saya sekarang
Saya suka dengan dia jugak
Macam saya suka dengan adik saya tu
Saya senang bercakap dengan dia
Dia tahu buat saya tersenyum
Dia juga tahu buat saya ketawa
Dia ada persamaan dengan adik saya
Dia suka kacau saya
Dia juga sometimes buat saya marah
Tapi dia baik dengan saya
Saya rasa cara dia comel
Saya tak boleh marah lama
Saya mahu kenal dia lebih lagi
Sebab saya rasa dia best
Saya mahu sayang dia lebih lagi
Sebab saya rasa dia menyenangkan
Tapi dia banyak masalah
Saya tahu itu
Sebab dia ada kasitau saya
Kesian dia...
Saya mahu nyanyi untuk dia
Sebab saya suka nyanyi
Biarlah kalau dia kata suara saya tak sedap
Saya nak jugak nyanyi..
Saya mahu jumpa dia
Sebab saya nak tengok senyuman dia
Sebab saya nak dengar ketawa dia
Sebab saya nak tengok muka dia bila dia marah
Sebab saya nak tengok diri dia yang sebenar
Sebab saya nak dia tengok diri saya yang sebenar
Kalau dia tetiba tak suka kat saya
It's okay, saya tak kisah
Saya nak say thanx kat dia
Sebab sudi jadi kawan saya
Dia datang masa kawan2 saya semua takde
Saya rasa dia akan baca tulisan saya ini
Sebab tu saya tulis
Dia sayang saya tak?
Ntahlah
Kalaupun dia tak sayang saya
Macam saya sayang dia
Saya tak kisah
Tapi apa yang saya mahu
Saya nak dia tahu yang....











Saya sayang dia











Sebab dia buat saya selesa
Bila saya dengar suara dia











Dia yang saya maksudkan





















Adalah dia..

You're Beautiful

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

One Last Cry

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the she
lfI saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you,
nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lieI guess
I’m down to my last cry
Cry......

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....

I’m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

One last cry,
before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m downI
guess I’m down...
To my last cry...

My Dear

My dear,
Terima kasih atas segala2 nya
masa,
janji,
pengorbanan,
dan apa jua yg penah u berikan
terima kasihsemoga u happy selalu
bersama org yg tersayangtolong,
jgn lukakan hati die okay?
i will always love you
we will be friendsdont you worry
take carebe good

Rgrds
AdLuqman

Yang Ku Mau..

Seringnya ku berpikir sampai pernah
Tak jua ku temukan jalan keluarnya
Jika memang bukan ini sudah tamatkanlah
Karena ku tak mau waktu ku terbuang

Jangan memaksakan ini
Jika memang bukan ini
Karena sesuatu yang peka
Buat kita jadi masalah

Yang ku mau ada diri mu
Tapi tak begini keadaannya
Yang ku mau selalu dengan mu

Jika Tuhan mau begini
Rubahlah semua jadi yang ku mau
Karena ku ingin
Semua berjalan seperti yang ku mau

Jangan memaksakan ini
Jika memang bukan yang ini
Karena sesuatu yang peka
Buat kita jadi masalah

Easy To Like , But Hard To Love

"to like someone, may be easy
but to love is hard

to be nice with someone, may be easy
but to care is hard

to think about someone may be easy
but to remember is hard"

You may have thousands of friend in your myspace or wherever, but only few of em will remember, appreciate and respect you as a person. Friends can be easily found, good friends will be harder to find than friends, but GREAT FRIENDS will never be found if you do not know how to treat your friends and good friends kindly.

People may think friends are not that important. YES, they can be annoying or irritating, but once you've found the right friends to be with, you will never ever feel like leaving em. When all your relatives, let say, you parents or siblings are gone, only great friends will be there by your side.

So .. cherish your friends as much as you can.
=)

Kenapa?

Saya penat...saya letih..saya tak tau nak buat apa dah dan saya dah tak tau nak ckp ape. Saya tak tau kenapa semua bendi ni terjadi. Kenapa org buat saya camni??..Kenapa?..Saya jahat ke?...Saya byk lukakan hati org yg saya sayang ke? Agaknya memang saya ditakdirkan camni. Saya sayangkan org..tapi.......ntahla.Adakah saya terlalu memaksa? Adakah saya terlalu merasa dan terasa? Tapi saya ada perasaan Saya jugak ada masalah saya. Saya pun manusia biasa. Saya bukan superman okay!.Kadang2 bila saya pikir bukan2..yang elok2 jadi.Tapi bila saya pikir yg elok...haih...boleh kata yg saya tak terpikir yg jadi."expect the unexpected, coz when u expect the expected,the unexpected will hurt u and tear ur hearts apart"Mungkin betul. Ntahlah..saya betul2 bingung. Dah tak larat. Saya sedih sgt. Dahlah kawan2 saya rapat saya jauh. Kat mana lagi saya nak turn to?...Saya rasa hopeless...useless...semualah!Biarlah....mungkin sebab dulu saya pernah kecewakan org dan skang saya kena lagi for the second time.......karma got me. What goes around, comes around;what goes up must come down....
Patience is a virtue ....

My All Time Fav Songs

1. I Surrender
2. My Baby You
3. When You Loved Someone
4. The Trouble With Love Is
5. We Belong Together
6. I Have Nothing
7. My All
8. Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word
9. Hard To Say I'm Sorry
10. Time After Time
11. It's All Coming Back To Me Now
12. I Will Always Love You1
3. Can't Take That Away
14. Through The Rain
15. I'll Never Break Your Heart
16. Cry Me A River
17. How Could I
18. Never Again
19. I Only Wanted
20. Because Of You
21. When You Believe
22. All By Myself
23. One Sweet Day
24. I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
25. When She Loved Me
26. You've Got A Friend
27. Without You
28. Total Eclipse Of The Heart
29. Dancing With My Father
30. One Last Cry
31. Autumn Leaves
32. When I Fall In Love
33. Ain't Nobody
34. Gone
35. A Song For You
36. Everytime
37. Anytime You Need A Friend
38. Just To Hold You Once Again3
9. Where You Are
40. Dangerously In Love

phew...ada lagi...hahahaha

If You Ever Did..

My heart is so fragileand it's so easy to break,So please treat it kindly for loves own sakeNever let my heart fall to the floor,Because if you ever didI could not love anymore.....

Maybe

There I was
Waiting for a chance
Hoping that you'll understand
The things I wanna say

As my love went stronger than before
I wanna see you more and more
But you closed your door
Why don't you try
To open up your heart
I won't take so much of your time

Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too
'Coz I know you'll never do
Somebody else is waiting there inside for you
Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day
'Coz I know he's here to stay
But I know to whom you should belong

I believed what you said to me
We should set each other free
That's how you want it to be
But my love went stronger than before
I wanna see you more and moreBut you closed your door
Why don't you try to open up your heartI won't take so much of your time

Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too
'Coz I know you'll never do
Somebody else is waiting there inside for you
Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day
'Coz I know he's here to stayBut my love is strong
I don't know if this is wrong
But I know to whom you should belong

.................................................................................................................
By King
Its a wonderful song..I like it so much!Taken from Sana'y Wala Nang Wakas

Cinta

Begitu indah pabila dirasai, tapi amat pedih bila dikhinati. Kehidupan tanpa cinta ibarat dunia tanpa matahari, gelap, tiada warna, dan melemaskan. Tapi, ia juga ibarat malam tanpa bulan, tanpa bintang, begitu kosong,tiada kerlipan dan tiada sinaran yang menenangkan. Cinta ada di hati setiap manusia . Bermula dgn kasih, timbullah sayang, maka wujudlah cinta. Ianya saling berkaitan. Manusia memerlukan cinta untuk hidup, perlukan cinta untuk bernafas, dan perlukan cinta untuk mati. Memang cinta itu selalunya mampu membuat manusia lupa akan tujuan hidup, tapi cinta jugalah yang mampu memberi manusia panduan untuk mewarnakan kehidupan. Cinta memang senang untuk dilafazkan, tapi begitu sukar untuk dimaksudkan. Hati yang kecewa kerana cinta, amat sukar untuk dipulihkan kerna sekali cinta melekat di hati, kesan yang tinggal akan wujud selamanya jika hati dilukakan. Cinta yang suci lahir dari hati yang ikhlas dan jiwa yang luhur. Cinta yang palsu lahir dari hati yang gelap dan jiwa yang penuh nafsu.Hargailah cinta dengan sepenuhnya, maksudkan cinta dengan sejujurnya dan rasailah cinta sepuasnya, kerna kita manusia di dunia, tidak akan kekal selamanya........

Cerita Cinta.....

Menapak jalan yang menjauh
Tentukan arah yang ku mahu
Tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa
Yang membuat hati lara...

Di dekat engkau aku tenang
Sandung matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita..

Cinta... Tegarkan hatiku
Tak mahu sesuatu merenggut engkau
Naluriku bergetar
Tak ingin terulang lagi
Kehilangan cinta hati
Bagai raga tak bernyawa

Aku....
Junjung petuahmu
Cintai dia yang mencintaiku
Hati yang dulu berlayar
Kini telah menepi
Bukankah hidup kita akhirnya
Harus bahagia.....?

Soar throat,again!

Arghhhhh........it's killing me!!!!!!!!!.....I can't stand the pain....feverla, soar stroat la..whats happenin!! Please..im gonna start my classes soon, why now!!!!..I havent study anything...now i couldn't even look at the text book peningla!...what am i supposed to do??..what should i do?..next weekends ada test...malaysian studies dgn islamic studies plak tu..im not worried sgt la pasal malaysin studies...bab satu until 3 only..which exactly like history masa kat sekolah dulu..but islamic studies!!!....sux to the max!!...its not that i hate islam..well..im a muslim..i like subject agama a lot masa kat sekolah dulu, but this time, islamic studies kat coll i cant really dapat satu pun apa yg buku text tu tulis...its sooo lame...not intresting at all!!..its like readding..old english literature book...even worst than that..its like totally in diff language!!..so what should i do now?..I cant really study now in this condition..well whateverla..forget about it..i have plenty of time i guess next week soo im gonna concentrate on those subjects later...but for now..i hope after jumpa doctor later my soar throt yg teruk akan hilang...forever!!!..i don wanna kena soar troat anymore..cannot sleep..cannot speak...argh....stupid!!!....

Pheww..

Well...dah lama dah tak post anything here..rasa rindu plak.anyway ..sekarang college tgh cuti so I have no idea what to do. Ive done my homework (Im sick of opening accounts) but Malaysian Studies punya assignment belum start lagi. I dont know which topic yg I want to do. So lame laaaa....haish...I need to go to the National Library to find some information on those topic. The dateline is fo freaking near, and I have not started anything..good..Im screwed!..whatever!..I need to go to the mall to buy some clothes!!! I need to treat myself...but sadly I have to use my own money! I repeat my money!!!..arghhh...stupid government..because of you, i have to do that!..yala...minyak naik, itu naik, ini naik...sooo pathetic!..btw, for your info, Im currently studying Certified Accounting Technician (CAT) a fastrack program under ACCA....lebih kurang macam Diploma in Accounting dekat Baitulmal Professional Institute (IPB). Why I chose that course? I HAVE NO IDEA!!!..well my dad asked me to take accounting..soo okayla...now I kinda like..tak la boring sgt the course..lecturers pun okay..kawan pun okay cuma the admin je yg tak best..mentang2lah aku ni freshman..macam2 suruh buat...boring seh!....now why I chose that college?..I know I can do it somewhere else like INTI college or kat lain2 tempat...but this college offers FULL SCHOLARSHIP!! i repeat, FULL!! thats why!...hehehehe.....penat la type..tapi hilang gak boring aku....wel..continue later la bila dah ada idea nak tulis ...bye

Thanx Dad!

At last..after a few months of waiting..I got a brand new phone..and I'm happy because I do not have to suffer anymore. Wanna know why?..my old phone was like a nightmare to me..with wierd sounds and soon-going-to-die battery..thank god!..but my new phone is not that expensive la...no camera..but can play mp3 ringtones...okayla tu..lagipun my dad bought it for me ( the best part is, I don't need to use my savings..yay) ....that's why he didn't buy me the expensive ones...what do u expect?..he's not mr. trump!..haha..just kidding . The phone is kinda like a gift for my spm results..though i didn't get 10 a1s..or 17 a1s(that girl is crazy..:P)..but I managed to do it la (fyi..I got 5 as..the rest..pandai-pandai cari sendiri).....since my dad didn't want me to get a job...so I thought I have to wait for like another year to get a new phone..but suddenly my dad said he's going to buy me one...how wonderful...thanx dad..you're the best!!...p/s: I didn't get to say goodbye to my 2 yo phone...bye bye phone..I'm going to miss ya..thanks for everything :)

Misteri Hidup

"Misteri hidup akankah menghilang Dan bahagia di akhir cerita" Such a wonderful phrase. Hidup memang misteri. We never know what will happen next.Kita boleh merancang tetapi tuhan menentukan segalanya.Hidup ibarat roda yang berputar. Sometimes we can be on the top of the wheel but in a second, segalanya boleh berubah."Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are".I've discovered.I've learned from my mistakes,and I won't do the same misteakes ever again(I hope..).How I wish I could predict the future.To get a glimpse of what will happen to me. But like I said, ianya tidak akan terjadi. Misteri hidup ini tidak akan menghilang. Misteri akan kekal misteri. Cerita hidup ini tidak akan kita tahu akhirnya. adakah bahagia akan menjelang, atau derita bakal menanti?....we'll see..