Alone

I’m getting the same feeling again. I have no idea why. But I just keep feeling it. I have tried my best to not feel anything like this anymore but seem to me, it’s not working.

What am I looking for?

A lover?
Who doesn’t, right? But itu ke yang aku perlukan?
Maybe.

Friends? I have friends. I do want to have more friends. But they are just friends. They come and go.
Sad.

I can’t specifically say what I need. But all I know, I need someone.

Sesorang yang aku boleh luangkan masa bersama.
Seseorang yang boleh aku ceritakan segala-galanya.
Seseorang yang aku dapat jaga.
Seseorang yang aku tahu boleh meluangkan masa untuk aku.
Seseorang yang aku tahu mahu mengambil berat terhadap diriku.
Seseorang yang aku tahu sayang padaku kerana aku cukup penat untuk menyayangi orang lain begitu sahaja. Sigh..

I’m a loner. And I’m lonely. I don’t know what I should do. I don’t know how long will I be like this.

Raya Raya Raya

Aidilfitri dah masuk hari ke-8. It has been quite a good raya for me. But in terms of celebration, taklah semeriah macam raya-raya yang lepas. Tahun ni pun shopping raya pun tak banyak sangat because I don’t have anything to buy pun. My baju melayu is still in a good condition. I used my last raya punya. To me, there’s no need for you to waste if the baju melayu is still good. Maybe next raya I will get a new one. 

My first day of raya was pretty much the same as previous years. Went to my uncle’s house and granma’s place. The best thing about raya to me is the food and of course, this is the only time you’ll get to have everyone together. Yelah kan, usually semua org akan busy during the normal days so susah nak jumpa dan bertanya khabar.

The rest of raya days, ada yang I ikut my parents pergi beraya, ada yang duduk rumah saje dan ade jugak I went out with my friends. Like the other day, I went out with one of my friends, Wan. We went for karaoke because he was bored and so was I. We karaoked (is there such word? Haha) for almost 3 hours. From Sogo (the karoke place, Red Box Ria) we jalan kaki to Masjid Jamek LRT Station.

Sambil-sambil tu, melihat-lihat la jugak keadaan bandaraya Kuala Lumpur. I would love to take pictures but my phone camera is not that good, so malas. Sampai dekat situ, ingat plan nak tengok wayang because malas nak balik rumah awal-awal but then after spending almost half an hour time looking for cinema’s phone numbers and show schedule, we cancelled the plan. Instead we jalan kaki again from Masjid Jamek to Puduraya’s area. 

I’m not really familiar with that area and I’ve never actually jalan kaki around that part of the city. Sampai area Puduraya, I was feeling hungry so we tried to find any place to eat, but my appetite was more to real food instead of fast food, so we couldn’t find one.

I joked, maybe we should walk from Puduraya to Bukit Bintang because malas nak naik LRT. Guess what? We did. We walked. It was damn far and tiring but it was something fun because I’ve done that before in my whole life. I think we walked like around 2 km? Crazy huh? Yeah. 

Then we arrived kat Bukit Bintang area and we chose to eat at one of the famous nasi ayam restaurants over there. Actually, I chose to eat there and he just followed me. Thanx =). After we had our dinner, we walked straight ahead to Sg Wang plaza and did some shampoo shopping. After that, sebab dah penat and it was around 9 pm dah masa tu, we decided to just balik. We walked from Sg Wang to STAR LRT Hang Tuah’s Station. 

Yes, it was like a marathon. Damn tiring but like I said, it was fun. I had fun that day. 

Anyway, that was few days ago. For your information, I have actually left marcusevans. Why? Because I have this brilliant plan of furthering my studies. I actually asked for a transfer from the sales department to the marketing and my manager asked to write a resignation letter and wait for the marketing people to call me because he already forwarded my resume to them. 

The problem is now, they did call me like few days ago, but the person yang call I didn’t know the real situation. I guess he wasn’t supposed to know pun kot. Whateverla. I screwed up my “unexpected” phone screen. So basically, I have totally lost my job. How sad right? So I ended up applying jobs using jobstreet. I was very worried because I was unemployed, yet again. 

I applied for a job with Mongoose Publishing, located in Menara Ambank (somewhere around KLCC for those yang nak tahu, the tall building behind Public Bank HQ) and they called me for an interview which I went on Friday, and after a good session of interview, I got the job! 

Alhamdulillah. I didn’t expect to get a job that soon, but prolly it was meant to be. They offered me a good salary and I’m going to start on the 1st November. So I have like 2 weeks of free time to waste now. Yuhu! Oh by the way, my position in the company would be, Research Executive. 

Things are going pretty well for me. Alhamdulillah. Berkat raya maybe. Haha. I have so many other things to write, but at the moment I’m so sleepy. I guess I need to get some sleep first because tomorrow, I would be slightly busy than usual. Why? Raya la! Hehe

I guess it is still not too late for me to wish my readers, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Goodnite =)


p/s: I miss you so much Awak. Dunno why. But I do.

New Desktop!

Ramadhan tinggal seminggu je lagi. Not sure whether I'm happy about it or not. Even I don't feel that excited about raya anymore. Don't know why. Maybe there's nothing new about it that I need to look forward to?

My raya will be pretty much the same. By the way, this is going to be my first time raya-ing as a working guy. Haha. Sound big but meh...nothing special bout it. Coz still, I don't have THAT much money to spend also. habe to use my last month salary coz my next salary will only be available in my account after raya. Damn!

Anyway, I'm gonna start my raya leave on the 12th and supposedly by office will be reopened on the 16th but I have decided to take unpaid leave for about three days. Why unpaid leave? This is due to the fact that I'm still under probation and I'm not allowed to utilize my annual leave even though I'm entitled for 4 days! Whatever! 

So basically, I'll be on leave for about 9 days. 9 freaking days you guys!! That's huge okay. Yay! But I don't know what I'll be doing. My first day of raya will be at my nenek house and few of other relatives houses. The 2nd day? No idea. The rest of the free days? Blank! Well, tengoklah macam mana nanti. Just wait and see.

Last saturday, I kena this bad food poisoning. Diarrhea to be specific. Coz I didn't vomit or anything like that. It was baaadd. But I still puasa coz I don't want to waste it just because of this stupid thing.  And I was weak. 

Yesterday, I had to see the doc coz the diarrhea masih lagi berlaku and the doc gave me some pills to be taken (which I don't really take) and she gave me two days of sick leave. Heaven I tell you! But it was kind of funny. The doc can't stop talking. She kept on talking talking and talking. I tak dapat cerita banyak pun about what I was having. I wanted to laugh coz I couldn't understand anything that she said. Thank you anyway. =)

Today, I woke up around 11 something. I slept late last night coz I was busy renovating my desktop. I reformated my computer and I changed the interface. Nak feeling feeling guna Mac. Thanx to Saleh coz he taught me few things. Thanx man! Wanna see how my desktop look like now? Here you go..
 


Cantik tak? Hehe. Knowing me, I'm still not satisfied. Muhahaha! Will work hard to make it better. Yelah, tak dapat pakai Mac computer, dapat dia punya interface pun jadi laa...huhu. And oh, by the way, I'm also using a new web browser. No longer internet explorer or mozilla firefox, but it's the fabulous, SAFARI by Apple. Damn nice. Like it so much! =)

Later this evening, I'll be buka puasa-ing with my colleague at my new favourite shopping mall, The Pavilion! Hope it will be a good buka puasa session.

I guess that's all la kot for this time. I'll update soon (if I have the pictures) my makan-makan session punya story. See ya!